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Monday, November 03, 2025Music Week
Expanded blog post, November archive (in progress). Tweet: Music Week: 31 albums, 5 A-list Music: Current count 45079 [45048] rated (+31), 14 [22] unrated (-8). New records reviewed this week:
Recent reissues, compilations, and vault discoveries:
Old music:
Unpacking: Found in the mail last week:
Daily LogGot up early, shortly after 9. I cooked a bit yesterday. I had some chicken livers left over from the birthday shopping. They were past their sell date, but looked good, so I fried some bacon and onions, dredged them in flour, and pan-fried them. I also had some yukon potatoes left, so I diced them and did basically the same thing: onion and bacon, pan-fried them, with a bit of water to speed up the cooking. I still have some cabbage, eggplant, a coconut. Leftovers from the last couple days in the refrigerator. The latter, by the way, is turning into a disaster zone. I've had a leak near the water filter for some time. Below it there is a large and heavily loaded deli tray, and below that the base of the section. The latter collects leaked water, and freezes it into a sheet that can get nearly 1/2-inch thick. When it does so, it freezes the deli tray in place. I have to dislodge it, and scrape the glacial freeze out. I've been using third-party filters, but tried a "genuine Samsung" on the off chance that it might seal better. Maybe better, but still not good enough. Refrigerator has two ice makers: one high, which distributes ice through the door; the other low, in the freezer compartment. Both have long had problems. Indeed, practically the only problems I've ever had with refrigerators have been in ice making. Anyhow, I found the bottom compartment frozen into a single block of ice. Evidently the ice maker leaked, then the leak froze. I cleaned it all up, and turned the bottom ice maker off. It remained dry for a couple days, so now I'm freezing ice in trays, and dumping them in the ice maker tray. It occurs to me that maybe I should shop for a standalone ice maker. I don't know where I would put it. Talked to Hometown Roofing yesterday. Started to write up a planning document. It's the first actual contract proposals I have in hand, $16,168.80 for the high roof and the carport. DHI's verbal offer was for $11,400 for the high roof + $2,500 for the carport, so that's a bit less. Hometown is calling for insurance filings that could effectively reduce their price. Same thing should work with any contractor, but Hometown is more on top of that front. Tom James is coming over late afternoon. I need to give Gottschalk a call. I can probably forget about Dolphin, and I'm not anxious to get anyone else involved. I also need to set up dentist appointment for filling. I'm not inclined to do the retreatment on 18. While the feeling there is not right, it isn't really painful either. I've been feeling real pain in my right wrist. I'm sure there's surgery available for that, but seems like I'm increasingly just having to live with shit. And unless something really nasty comes along, probably better that way. Kitchen sink is fixed, but I need to do some work under it, mostly to get the wiring out of the way, before we can put all the stuff back. It's been cool, but is supposed to warm up tomorrow, so that may be my best chance to work on the grill, and more general outside work. Election Tuesday as well, so we need to vote. I had a long talk with Mike the other night. He says he's thinking a lot about my mother recently. I should get him to prod me into writing more memoir.. Email (12 messages):
Sunday, November 02, 2025Daily Log"Fall back" last night, so I got an hour's more sleep than the 10:20 the clock currently reads. I made a couple more Indonesian dishes yesterday:
A guy from Hometown Roofing came over, climbed up on the roof, and pronounced the tarp he had installed still good. We talked some, about roofing, but also he has some tech interests and some experience with AI programming tools (e.g., for websites), and is publishing a book on his experiences as a private security contractor in Texas, where he seems to be persona non grata. I need to talk to his boss today, about his roof estimate. The boss is going in for surgery on Monday, so won't be available for a few days after that. I need to figure out more about the scope of the work before I talk to other contractors next week. I should have estimates coming in soon from DHI and Arambula, possibly Gottschalk, probably not Dolphin. I still have chicken livers in the refrigerator, so I plan on frying them today. That leaves more eggplant leftover (a couple long purple ones, a bunch of green round ones). They're probably headed for the garbage, unless I want to try to turn them into caviar or something like that. I still need to work more on the jazz poll. I've been editing the invites. That mostly just leaves the doc files. I might start with them by just commenting out all the old stuff, then put off rebuilding them. Email (8 messages). First album today is Wire. Saturday, November 01, 2025Daily LogGot up around 10. Finished the first section of The Shock of the Anthropocene, which has yet to become as interesting as I had hoped, but here and there offers big points, like that over 30% of all land-based vertebrate biomass is human, with another 60%-plus in livestock, leaving about 7% for the rest of "nature." Came downstairs. Checked my phone voicemail: 6 messages, all pretty old. This doesn't strike me as a very good system. It's not clear when the call was received. Also who was calling. I think there was a call from Gottschalk about roofing, but without being able to cross-reference my phonebook, I'm just going by voice recollection and context. Another was from a guy I would have liked to add to my phonebook, but couldn't at the time. I could have called back, but that wasn't something I wanted to do just then. Plan for today is to cook the duck, "Aceh-style," which is a typical Indonesian flavor paste + coconut milk. I should make another pass at the grill. If that works, I can grill some of the eggplant, and serve it with peanut sauce. I had library books due today, but they seem to have been renewed. I should check that. [I did. They're all good to 11/15.] I need to do more jazz poll work. Email (9 messages):
Friday, October 31, 2025Daily LogWent to Wichita Orthodontics yesterday. They did all the same x-rays and analysis as they did in my initial consultation there, but didn't charge me. They did propose re-treatment on 18, to go in and load up the root canal with "medicine," which supposedly would clean out any "microchannels" that the root canal missed, so they can repack the tooth, and recap it with a temporary filling, so eventually we'll go back and have to replace the crown. They want $1500 for the retreatment, then I'm looking at another $1000 for filling and crown. Alternatives are extraction or just "living with it." I stopped by grocery store on the way back. I was going to make pork with peanuts, but I got back too late to do that. I did very little the rest of the day. I woke up after 10 (398 minutes, so 100). Read some. Came down. Creekmore is sending a plumber over around noon to install the new kitchen faucet. Looks like an easy connection, but it's very awkward getting up behind the sink and garbage disposal to tighten it down, and the shutoff valves are stuck. I could fix both with some trouble (I also have replacement valves, although mine are multi-turn and I like 90° better). So I'm a bit embarrassed at hiring this work out, but it will be nice to get something done quickly. Another roofer coming over at 4:30. Waiting on various others. I should be able to do some cooking this afternoon, and some more tomorrow. Today: pork with peanuts, bok choy, rice. Tomorrow I hope to use the roast duck ("Aceh style"), and maybe the eggplant. Birthday dinner leftovers are almost all gone -- mostly just some gado gado, and maybe a bit of pickle. Email (27 messages):
I got screwed over by Worldle. You're supposed to pick a country based on a map image. All-time statistics show 1110 games played, a 99.9% win rate, 818 strikes, 1.4 avg guesses, 145 max win streak. You get six guesses to identify the country. Each failure gives you a direction and distance (based roughly on the center points in each country). I almost always get continental states on the first guess. Islands are trickier, and many of them depend on how exactly they are organized politically. For instance, I have little trouble recognizing Kerguelen, but remembering French Southern and Antarctic Lands is harder. The maps also make it hard to recognize scale, as Vatican City (for instance) occupies the same image space as Russia. My first guess wins are 73.7%. Multiple guesses: 2 14.9%, 3 7.7%, 4 2.7%, 5 0.7%, 6 0.2%. After a guess or two, I often start looking at maps -- especially if we're dealing with Pacific or Caribbean islands (the former are widely scattered; I've never gotten the ordering of the latter). Sure, the maps are arguably cheating, but with solitaire games cheating is simply a life choice. I play Quordle also (after Laura solves the first word), and for that I use a tool, which saves me hours of racking my brain for obscure words, but the tool itself requires some skill and cunning. Anyhow, bottom line is my first Worldle loss was tonight, and I feel like I was cheated: the unidentifed country was Transylvania, which is not a country at all (and I'm not sure if it ever was). They possibly chose it for Halloween. (According to Reddit, they've done this sort of thing on holidays before, once pulling up a map of the Roman Empire for an April 1.) In other news today, a plumber came over to install the kitchen
faucet. Cost me almost $200, but it took him a good 1.5 hours --
maybe more, as we discovered a leak after he presented me with the
bill, and it didn't tighten up easily. While the faucet itself was
pretty straightforward, the shutoff valves were stuck, so I had him
replace them, and one of the hoses wasn't long enough, so he wound
up soldering a piece of copper in below the valve.
Daily LogI worked out an ugly hack yesterday to fix the kitchen faucet. Leak seemed to be at the swivel joint where the pull-out head is attached to the hose. The joint is crimped onto the hose, and threaded onto the hold, and both of those look fine. The problem is with the pivot itself. On reflection, that probably means it's just a worn out rubber washer, but I wasn't able to get the head off (with my hands; a wrench would have done the trick). But I've long hated that faucet, so first thing I did was to order a new one. It came yesterday, but installing it is going to be a job -- so bad I'm contemplating hiring out. Meanwhile, the pan underneath the sink fills up. So I thought if I could just keep the head from docking, the leak water would drip into the sink and not back into the tube and under the sink. I cut off a 4-inch piece of some foam insulation for 1-inch pipes, wrapped it around the good hose above the leak, and the end of the faucet tube, and secured it with a couple of zip ties. Ugly, but works fine. I tried contacting the roofers yesterday, plus another one showed up on my doorstep (DHI Roofing). I allowed the latter to come over Friday afternoon for a "free inspection." I talked to Hometown on phone. The guy there was in Texas, but promised to get back to me with a quote "tomorrow," and said he'd be in Wichita next week. I sent email to Dolphin and Gottschalk, but haven't heard from either. They are almost certain to bid high. The others claim they'll do whatever for the insurance estimate (minus deductible), but the ACV policy has a lot of nonrecoverable depreciation, so I don't believe them, and in any case suspect them of being cheap. That leaves Tom James. I talked to him, and he wants to bring his roofer over, but can't do that until Monday. So some progress on that front, plus some delays. I also called Wichita Endontics about my dental problem. Dr. Tsao insisted I get back with them before we move on to permanent filling and crown. I suspect it's just something I'm going to have to learn to live with, and for now at least it's not so bad I can't. But they gave me an appointment at 2:30 today, so I'm off to see them soon. I woke up shortly after 9 (85 on the meter), and read some. I went back to bed, not expecting much, but did get some more sleep, and finally got up at 11:45. I need to go out around 2, and stop by the grocery store on the way back. I boiled the pork belly yesterday, and cubed the loin and put it in a velvet marinade. I'll probably fix the latter tonight, and try an Indonesian recipe on the duck tomorrow. For the latter, at least, I'll need shallots and ginger, as I threw out the excess from the birthday dinner. I haven't written any more on that, but I did start to look at the jazz poll website, and edited the ballot invite. I set up a new planning document for working on it, so I feel like I'm finally moving a bit there. I got some email yesterday that led me to YAMM (Yet Another Mail Merge), which is a service that is based on GMail and Sheets, for $3 or $5 per month (but billed annually). Big thing I like about it is reporting on who received and opened the mail. I should look for others like that. I'm leery of getting into bed with Google, but something like that may be inevitable.Email (27 messages):
Had to killall, update, and restart firefox. Wednesday, October 29, 2025Daily LogGot up just before 10, and read some more Pappé. I was thinking I would skip the "fictional diary" at the end, but slid easily enough into it, so I expect to finish it today. Meanwhile, I started with The Shock of the Anthropocene, but am only at page 5. Not necessarily the next book, but one of many candidates. I picked it up for my eye doctor appointment, as I didn't want to run out of book with Pappé. Mostly good news from eye doctor, including the note that my eyesight is better now without glasses than it was with glasses before surgery. Still, close vision is worse, so maybe I should try reading with glasses. Also, there seems to be something going on in the left eye — I forget the term he used, but he wanted to look at it again in six months. Could be this?
While the doctor seemed confident and upbeat, I came away rather distraught. My eyes were dilated, so I had to wear my new glasses with the clip-on sunglass filter. They don't help much (if any), and don't fit especially well. After that, I drove to a hardware store to look for some sort of rubber hose clamp I might be able to use to patch up the leaky faucet until I can get it replaced. I didn't find anything usable, but failed to find anyone to ask. I had previously tried using Flex Tape, but the leak blew right through it. I thought maybe a small rubber coupler with screw bands I could tighten would do the job, but smallest I found was 1.25-inch. At this point, I'm less concerned with plugging the leak than with keeping leaked water from draining back through the faucet and into the cabinet basin. I have some ideas, but they may not be worth pursuing at this point. New faucet should arrive today, but I doubt I can install it. After that, I drove to Gyro Express, to pick up a sandwich (special deal, got two). While there, I accidentally dialed Jerry. I hung up, but the call registered, and he called me back. We had a talk about how much we both missed each other, ending when he teared up. I need to rethink how I deal with him. I complained about the car, which he dismissed as unimportant. Like a shrink, he asked what was really bothering me. As with shrinks, I hardly know where to begin, and am not sure I should. I drove home, and was fairly shook by everything. I did very little the rest of the day (other than eat gyros, and leftover cake). Today I need to call Wichita Endodontics for some kind of follow up on the dental work. I also need to contact the roofers, and try to get some quotes, or start looking for new roofers. I'm pretty disgusted with the entire industry at this point. My next writing should be on the birthday dinner, building on drafts I've recently written. I still have stuff in the refrigerator I need to cook, so I may see what I can do on that front. Loose Tabs is always open. Also need to work on the Jazz Poll. But all of that can minimally be postponed until afternoon. Email (16 messages):
Tuesday, October 28, 2025Daily LogI didn't get Music Week posted until after 3AM. I was rambling, and pretty depressed by then. Got up a little after 9, and read more Illan Pappé. Top some extent he replies to my concerns yesterday about finding a political schism within Jewish Israel that might see their future depending on some kind of outreach to Palestinians. I've long known such people to exist, but they seem to be utterly marginal. I'm reminded of white people in the US who weren't just invested in their liberalism but who actually looked to black (and sometimes indigenous) movements in hopes of finding some kind of redemption there. I've felt that pull myself, but those groups -- like Communists and Weatherman -- have always been relegated to the extreme fringes of a sociopolitical system that systematically roots out and excludes heresy. And Israel has, if anything, become even more intolerant of political divisions than America was (though maybe not where America seems to be going). My sketch of "best case scenario" still holds. Thinking about my binational notions now, but I'm reluctant to write them up. Very briefly, the people would be divided into two polities, each with its own legislature. Some "big state" functions would be exclusively controlled by the Zionist Knesset, including foreign policy, defense, and borders. Other areas, like commerce, would require agreement by both legislatures. Some, like public support of religion, education, arts, etc,, could be managed independently. Basic laws would guarantee civil rights, including the right to move within the unified state, The courts and state police would require some fine tuning. Both polities would vote in local elections, which would most likely split according to demographics, which may in turn be self-reinforcing. But much power would be decentralized, and left to the local units. Taxes would be collected uniformly, then distributed according to needs, which would make them somewhat redistributive. Basically, Israel gets to keep its Zionist conceits, while treading more lightly on the Palestinians, who lose their "national ambitions" but still can live normal lives. This isn't something one would want to impose on a blank slate, but Israel has already implemented the worst parts, so the practical task is to make them less onerous. Raining again, but not enough to register. Cool, but not yet cold. We spent some time shopping for a new kitchen faucet. I ordered a Kraus Oletto, which is about an inch higher than the old one. Should come Wednesday. I'm somewhat reconciled to getting a plumber out to install it, but I'll take a look at it first, and see how the hoses match up, and whether I can reach the nut that holds the old unit in place (as I recall, that was very difficult, or maybe impossible without removing the garbage disposal, which itself is difficult). No news on the roofing front. I have to go to eye doctor today, so that's an excuse to put it off another day. Email (18 messages): Nothing of note, but later:
Monday, October 27, 2025Music Week
Expanded blog post, October archive (in progress). Tweet: Music Week: 7 albums, 1 A-list Music: Current count 45048 [45041] rated (+7), 22 [16] unrated (+6). New records reviewed this week:
Recent reissues, compilations, and vault discoveries: None Old music: None Unpacking: Found in the mail last week:
Daily LogGot very little done yesterday. Didn't help that the weather was inclement. We seem to finally be into fall, although serious cold and the major tree dump are still a few weeks away. Still, looking at the end of things that were preferably done during the summer. That includes work outside the house. Also includes possible trips out of town. In some ways, this feels like the rest of my life. Got up around 10, sleep score 90. Overcast again. Read some more Pappé. He's ok in describing what should happen, but not much help at how it could happen. I had a spare thought the other day that democracy evolved out of rhetorical contests between elites. As Europe's medieval feudalism evolved into nation states, monarchies had to broaden their political base, allying with lesser aristocrats and other elites (clerics, soldiers, traders and other businessfolk). Nominal loyalty to the king was de rigeur, but rivalry was inevitable. Democracy within the elite group was one common tactic, and part of its appeal is that it seemed to be fair and just -- not that any of the groups were above cheating for advantage. It was also implicitly expansive, potentially to everyone, although in practice it was only extended piecewise, when some inside group thought they had an outside group whose inclusion could augment their own power. Jeffeson recognized that "all men are created equal" sounded good, even if he didn't believe it. Jacksonian Democrats extended the franchise to lower class whites expecting them to support slavery. Republicans added freed slaves to their ledgers. Women, and later lowering the voting age from 21 to 18, turned out to be bipartisan bets. The UK has numerous examples, spread out over an even longer stretch of time. Same dynamic applies much more fitfully to France, but even in the absolutist pre-revolutionary monarchy, you see the emergence of multiple states. So the obvious question for Israel is when and how will some Jewish political party see an advantage in soliciting Palestinian votes? Presumably this will have to come from the left, but Ben-Gurion deliberately cut the legs out from under the left in the 1930s with the Histadrut's focus on Hebrew Labor, leaving only the Communists attempting to build working class solidarity across the Israeli/Palestinian line. Today the left is extremely marginalized, and having abandoned the left, the Zionist Labor party is similarly atrophied. This has largely been accomplished by the right militarizing the conflict. I'm tempted to say it's never been more militarized than now, but 1936-39, 1947-49, 1989-92, and 2000-04 were other peak periods, the years in between were never lacking for polarizing incidents. Still, it's possible that a respite will lead to some reflection. I don't really know how this might work, but while people tend to rally behind a war effort, many remember it badly and look to change course afterwards. The full depths of Israeli depravity since 2023 has yet to sink in, especially among Israelis and American supporters who felt most threatened by Hamas, and who have struggled so hard to remain innocent of Israel's genocide. As the threat recedes, as they become more secure, some of their eyes will open to what they've done, and there will be some kind of backlash. What kind, how much, I have little idea, but Pappé is not wrong to see "cracks in the foundation" of the Jewish state. The stretch is in thinking that sensible people will see them and start repairs. I've noticed some other books along these lines, and they all seem to have to same basic problem: lots of good ideas for a better world, but no party to implement them. The only silver lining that I see here is that in Israel (unlike America) it is easy to stand up a new party and compete nationwide. I don't see it happening yet, but it's possible. Plan for today is to post Music Week, and to start writing up a Substack post on birthday dinner. I've already done the Music Week cutoff (a measly +7 records, 1 A-list, +6 unrated). I'm back to playing unrated albums. I've also written up most of the recipes, and I have a couple of photos I can use. I could write that up fairly quickly, or take a couple days and write up some research on past dinners (back to 2001 should be in the notebook). I can also start collecting Loose Tabs, but I'm not in much of a hurry there. Jazz Critics Poll is probably more urgent. I should at least send something out this week. I'm also thinking I should go through my address book and plea with some friends to sign up for Substack. Also do some promo on the Israel pieces. But I also need to deal with non-writing tasks. I need to get the roofing bids in, so work on that can be scheduled. Most immediately, I need to get a new kitchen faucet. Current one has developed a bad leak, and needs to be repaired or replaced. Given that I hate it, the latter seems like the obvious choice. I also need to line up some plumbing work. I might as well get the basement drain fixed, and maybe the lead water line replaced. Then we get into the many house cleaning and organization tasks. I have the kiosk ready, the wood pile sorted, and quite a bit of storage space that just needs to be better utilized. Then the weeding out. Email (17 messages):
Sunday, October 26, 2025Daily LogBirthday dinner is history now. I did what I could within the time allowed and the energy I could muster. We had six guests, so eight in total. Jerry didn't show again, which breaks my heart. His enthusiasm did much to keep this tradition going in its Wichita phase, pretty much the same role Liz Cyr-Jones played in getting the series going. I haven't heard from her in nearly 25 years, also breaking my heart. The first dinners, back in Boston, were mostly done to impress some friends from Contex days, but mostly her. As I recall, the first Chinese had almost 20 dishes, and was repeated the next year with more than 20, then followed by a similar number of Indian dishes. The biggest was a second Indian, made in 1998 in New Jersey, with friends from New York City attending. (An attempted leftover reprise with New Jersey friends fizzled out. By this point, space became a problem.) I have a planning file, which I'll update to reflect the dinner. I should also document the recipes (especially those I pulled out of library books), file a Facebook post, and turn the whole thing into a Substack post. So I won't belabor those points here. I will note that I wound up with 13 dishes plus 2 cakes. I still have a lot of leftover groceries, some of which I should use over the next couple days, but most will go into the trash. I learned some things, but never figured out how to get the spicing right. That didn't seem to bother any of those present, as no one touched the jar of sambal oelek I offered. When I started cleaning up the mess after people left, I stepped in water on the floor. Turned out that the cabinet under the sink was flooded. I took everything out, mopped up the water, and did various tests to find the leak. I eventually figured out it was coming from the hose tube, where the counterweight is attached (although it now occurs to me that the leak could be where the head connects, and the water just flows down the host, pooling up and dripping where the weight is; the leak at the head has been obvious for some time, but mostly leaks into the sink; I haven't figured out any way to tighten the head connection, but I should try again). Obvious solution is to buy a new faucet. This was a pretty high-end Kohler, with a sensor control that never worked the way I wanted, so I've been unhappy with it for a long time. This is, it was such a pain to install it that I've been reluctant to replace it. Not the sort of thing I'd normally need a plumber for, but it really is pretty horrific to get all the way up behind the sink to tighten the nuts and make all the connections. Email (10 messages):
Saturday, October 25, 2025Daily LogBirthday, remains to be seen how happy, but cooking was my idea, so if it's a bust it's my own damn fault. Woke up remembering dead people: my grandfather (father's side; the other one I never knew, as he died in 1936) died when he was 70, as he had predicted from studying the Bible; my father made it to 77, and his younger brothers to 79 and 81 (the elder one, George, didn't make it to 50, and his Jr., a year older than me, died in his 60s, and another male Hull cousin, Don, is also gone). My grandmother (also father's side; the other one died in 1947, before I was born) lived longer, but was lost to senility, and I don't think I ever saw her after 77 or so. On my mother's side, remembering Aunt Lola, who (like her parents) died before turning 70. The others of that generation are all gone, many long ago, and my cohort of cousins are mostly gone too. I did speak to Jan yesterday. She's 82, widowed, and unhappy in a room in Utah, missing her home, but at least she has children close by. Aside from Laura, I'm feeling pretty alone. Did some cooking yesterday, but didn't get much done. I have the pork and lamb curries, but the latter came out more like a pale tan korma than the rich brown of the picture. Also have the carrot-cucumber pickle, eggplant pickle, pineapple pickle, and green beans. Also the orange-spice cake. Found some marmelade for the glaze. Finally made a batch of peanut sauce, which isn't great, but should do. I'm going to need to mix it with coconut cream for the gado gado, so I can touch it up then. Laura did manage to get the jigsaw puzzle done, so I can move it out of the way. Got up at 10. Raining, and cold. Read some about Palestinian refugees and the "right of return." Wrote this. Recycled last night's music: highlife and something else I've already forgotten. I need to start cooking: rice first, then first of two stages for chicken and ribs, then beef redang (which takes a long time). Duck is a maybe right now. I balked at the chocolate cake last night. I could try it (supposedly easy, but sounds hard). Greens shouldn't be too hard, and can be done sooner or later. Assemble the gado gado on the side. Set the pickles out. Last bit will be to fry the rice and chicken, and finish the ribs in the oven. Email (10 messages): nothing I even feel like opening. Several "happy birthday" messages on Facebook. Friday, October 24, 2025Daily LogOnly managed to get one dish done yesterday: acar kuning (cucumber and carrot pickle with tumeric). Finished it too late to taste, but looks and smells good. Big question will be the spiciness. I included two fresh chilies in the maceration, but discarded them (recipe called for them to be chopped up fine), and two dried chilies when I sauteed the flavor mix, but again discarded them (after they had infused the oil; recipe called for them to be chopped up). I'll probably follow that pattern throughout, so there will be hints of chili, but nothing extreme. This "pickle" is basically macerated vegetables, coated with a thick flavor paste. I have more cucumber and carrot, so I may try more of a brine-based pickle recipe. I also have enough eggplant to try several recipes. I figure I can go ahead and start assembling the gado gado vegetables. The green beans may be split between their own curry and the gado gado. I should also do the greens sooner rather than later, as that will reduce some of the bulk. Then on to meat curries. Also need to mix up a batch of peanut sauce. I'll start on this after breakfast. Starting to get my mise en place, and that will pick up more as needed. I looked at grill yesterday. Problem, as I recall, was that the back burner tubes didn't light up, so something was blocking the gas flow. I disconnected the gas hose to the side burner, and couldn't get it back in, so that was the main reason I gave up. Not easy to get to the crossover gas tube, but shouldn't be too complicated: two screws will loosen the burner tube assembly, but how they fit onto the valves and crossover isn't totally clear. Still, can't be that complicated. I gave everything else a fairly good cleaning. I looked at a YouTube video on cleaning up the burner tubes, but mine don't look at all bad. So no grill in today's menu. I sent Facebook messages inviting Jerry and Holger to dinner. Holger accepted. Feeling down after the grill, just bewildered by everything else. I tried calling Jan, but didn't get her. Then, surprisingly, Matt called me, from Arkansas. His 15-year-old daughter had a paper rejected for appearing to have been AI-generated. How did the teacher know? By using AI, of course. Matt wanted to talk about game theory, specifically how to play a situation where the rules forbid appearance of AI. Or as he put it, how do you prove a document isn't AI? Given that AI is a moving target, I doubt you can. Better question is whether you should even try? What difference does it make? I don't want to go down this rabbit hole here and now, but it wouldn't be hard for me to turn this into another argument why we need a more equitable society. Still, despite the large bullshit factor, a nice distraction from my moping. Email (47 messages):
Thursday, October 23, 2025Daily LogDespite my generally low-key, passive demeanor, and often bleak out look on the world, I usually reject others' suggestions that I am prone to depression. But yesterday I wound up feeling pretty well depressed. I was probably primed by Tuesday's triple posting. My posts usually vanish without a trace, but so much work on three at once heightens the sense of pissing into the void. No response on the roofing front either (not that I was expecting much there). Went to the dentist at 2. Cleaning was fine, but I had to pay full price, as my insurance has capped payments, and I've blown my wad this year. Most of that was on a root canal and crown on 18, and a root canal retreatment on 19 (leaving me in need of another crown). My original complaint was a low-grade pain that seemed to be worsening over a couple weeks. I probably should have had the tooth extracted, but figured it would be best to keep something there. Problem was, the same pain sensations came back, which led to suspicion of othe adjacent tooth, which had a root canal and crown back in the 1980s. Hence the retreatment. I still have the same sensations, albeit less pain, where I expect to have no feeling at all. My dentist has looked at it a couple times, and has no answers. He suggested I go back to the specialist who did the retreatment. Pending that, I don't have the permanent filling, much less the replacement crown (which my dentist is more emphatic on the need for than the specialist is). More expense, but most importantly, more hassle chasing down something that no one seems to have a handle on. I can't even really describe the sensation. Before and after, I shopped for birthday dinner. I still don't have a firm menu, so I just bought a lot of things. I went to Nifty Nut House first, mostly to pick up macadamia nuts. They're the preferred substitutes for kemiri nuts, followed by brazils and almonds. I went to Lucky Market after that. I bought a lot of produce, including pretty much one of everything green, plus some pork (ground, leg, belly, something in between). I had to ask, but got some wafers that can be deep fried for shrimp chips. Very little there that was specifically Indonesian, but I have a huge pile of stuff. I was hungry by then, so got dinner at Cafe Maurice: shawarma platter, gyro meat and grilled vegetables over rice with tahini. It was pretty good. After that, I went to Whole Foods: got brazil nuts, some fresh coconut, some lamb (a chunk of leg and some stew meat), a few more things. I went to Dillons after that, picking up more produce, chicken wings, a very expensive piece of top round steak, cream, milk, some ice cream. I had a lot of trouble getting Spotify to work in the car, so the car felt like a horrible mistake. Gas talk is down to a quarter, so first fill up is looming. (We've had it for more than two months now.) I didn't manage any cooking. That still leaves three days, but this morning I'm not getting an early start, and really don't know where to begin. Wrote this before breakfast, while playing Sonny Boy Williamson. Need to pick out something else now, and get moving. Email (26 messages):
Wednesday, October 22, 2025Daily LogMega update done. Substack post went out. Music Week and Loose Tabs appeared. Roofing progress: Gottschalk came over, will submit quote; Tom James wants his boss to come over for a look; I wrote a letter to Hometown to try to kick them into gear; I shoud send a nag to Dolphin, but they're probably out. I meant to start cooking yesterday, but the only thingn I managed was a large batch of my Spanish cabbage tapas (long planned, still have half a head). Also didn't manage to resort the pantry, but I threw out the macadamia nuts, so will have to get some new ones. Plan for today is to go shopping after dentist. I suspect I'll need one more run on Friday, but I'll try to pick up almost everything today. Watched last 2 episodes of The Diplomat last night. They were pretty bad, with the romantic angles playing even worse than the political ones. Main point seems to be to set up a fourth season, where Ambassador Kate realizes that VP Hal and Prez Grace have become a toxic combination and seeks their destruction by holding them close. Got up at 10. Gives me a bit of time to kill before dentist at 2. I should sharpen up my shopping list, but at this point I doubt that will help much. I'll easily have more than I need. Email (26 messages):
Tuesday, October 21, 2025Loose TabsPick up text from here. Daily LogMy plan for a mega update, posting Music Week and Loose Tabs, as well as sending Gaza II to Substack, fell short. I got through two of three sections in the latter, so first thing today will be to get that wrapped up. It occurs to me that I should change references to "Palestine virtual state" to "Palestine refugee state," which would be more accurate and would further distinguish the entity from any territorial claims. Gaza could then be initially described as a territory, which would follow the American model of the federal government organizing territories until they were deemed ready for statehood. I could also develop this territory concept further: Gaza could be the prototype for a UN-backed state-building kit, which could be invited into areas of failed states to reorganize government — not unlike the caretakers appointed to rebuild corporations bankrupted under Chapter 11. Alas, that sounds like another point, and I don't want any more of those. I did my first round of Indonesian shopping yesterday, going to Thai Binh and Dillons. At the former, I bought half of a roasted duck, a 1.5 lb box of soft-shelled crabs, frozen squid, Japanese eel (probably for future use), 6 cans of coconut cream, a fair range of vegetables, including eggplants, carrots, shallots, mint, lemon leaves, ginger, galangal, turmeric, green beans, lemongrass, garlic, a handful of red chilies, dried chilies, and a few small bananas to experiment with. (They had a half-dozen varieties, and I have no idea which is which, let alone which is best for frying.) I picked up a few more things at Dillons, including a cauliflower (which actually didn't look any better than the one I skipped over at Thai Binh), a small package of potatoes, onions, scallions, mini-cucumbers, peanuts, peanut butter, a coconut (I was hoping to find some grated fresh, but no such luck, so I figured I should have one for backup). I have Gottschalk coming over to talk about roof. Other than that, and getting the posts out, my plan is to start cooking. I want to put up a jar of acar (pickles), make peanut sauce, and try out a few of the sambals. I have a jar of sambal uelek, so no need to try to make my own there. I expect that many of these dishes will wind up spicier than I prefer, but I'm going to move cautiously on that front — especially early on, as the heat only grows with age. Laura thinks we can finish the puzzle by Friday. I really doubt that. Perhaps if I worked full time it might be possible, but I expect to be busy with other things. [I took a half-hour before breakfast to work on this, and got 6-7 pieces in, which is more efficient than average so far.] Still means I have to dedicate a large part of the dining room table to keeping it open. At some point I'll need the space, and have to move it away. Email (30 messages):
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This led to a discussion of Foucault, where Tony Ferrizzi recommended an essay, "Nietzsche, Genealogy, History" (in lieu of the "huge history books (though they are magic)." I've only read bits of early Foucault -- most likely Madness and Civilization, The Birth of the Clinic, and/or The Order of Things (in my memory it was "Birth of the Asylum," which may be a subtitle to the former, or a corruption of the second; I definitely had a copy of the third, but don't recall making any real headway through it; I liked the word "structuralism," but never explored its theorists deep enough to claim any understanding of what they meant). Interestingly, when I googled for "counterhistory," I got a Wiktionary definition that was much less pointed than I assumed Gilman had meant ("an alternative interpretation of history"). I also found a piece titled What is Counterhistory?, which cited Foucault (on Nietzsche, no less), but also a book by David Biale, Gershom Scholem: Kaballah and Counter-History, which gets us pretty close to Benjamin. I thought about responding, but I'm overwhelmed with other crap. Monday, October 20, 2025Music Week
Expanded blog post, October archive (in progress). Tweet: Music Week: 40 albums, 8 A-list. Music: Current count 45041 [45001] rated (+40), 12 [29] unrated (-17). New records reviewed this week:
Recent reissues, compilations, and vault discoveries:
Old music:
Unpacking: Found in the mail last week:
Daily LogWatched two more episodes of The Diplomat last night. The extreme implausability of not one but two career diplomats being considered as non-elective vice presidents, as well as the notion that they could continue to function as separate but still married but not really, is really getting out of hand. Most annoying part was Hal's glib defense of the F-35, which both president (Allison Janney) and diplomat (Keri Russell) witnessed and somehow thought profound. Other countries buy F-35s not because they want them, but because they think doing so will win them points with whoever's in charge of America. They are useless and insanely expensive, but their purchase is considered a legal form of tribute (or bribery). As I recall, when Biden threatened to hold back on delivering 2,000 lb bombs, Israel promptly agreed to buy a couple dozen F-35s, which would take years to deliver, so Biden released the bombs now. Finished writing my Gaza II piece yesterday. I had sent Gaza I to five people, but only heard back from Laura, so I just sent this one to her. I woke up thinking of more stuff I could add, but it's already way too long. And while it leaves many questions unanswered, I thought it ended strong. Those questions, by the way, mostly have to do with the coddling of Israel and Trump that has to occur in order to get them to actually do the bare minimum for peace. I'm willing to throw the Palestinian refugee issue under the bus, not just to appease Israel but because I really think the people involved will be much better off if they turn their backs on Palestine and build new lives elsewhere. So I see extending the Gaza deal to disperse the other refugees, and to allow more emigration from the West Bank — those are the things Israel most cares about — I still think a lot of pressure will be needed on Israel to keep them from killing the rest of their people (and "their" is appropriate, because they [Israelis] are responsible for the rest of the Palestinians still under their rule). That means no amnesty for war crimes (even though the charges are effectively unenforceable, they should still face public scrutiny every day), and a rededicated BDS effort to impose some (however small) cost on their continuing apartheid regime. Hopefully, readers won't have to think too hard to read those points between the lines. I've started reading Illan Pappé's Israel on the Brink: And the Eight Revolutions That Could Lead to Decolonization and Coexistence. Intro was common stuff, but the book itself has already started getting interesting. I'm not a close observer of Israeli politics, so that's what I'm looking for insight into. I do suspect that the self-harm Israel has committed will sooner or later exact a price on their political self-conception. I have no idea how that will play out, but Pappé's assertion of "cracks in the foundation" is very likely right. I need to stop myself here, before I argue that the rottenness of Zionism could only be exposed by example, much as the rottenness of Nazism was (and the rottenness of Trumpism is also showing). Woke up at 11, but sleeping was uneasy for at least an hour before I got up. Read some. Came down. Heard a buzz in the basement, where a UPS is starting to die. They are necessary machines, but pretty unreliable, and have turned into a substantial portion of our "E-waste." I should pick up another one, or two (as I have one in the dining room just being used as a power strip). Laura has dentist today, so will be out this afternoon. I have tons of work to do today and all week. I really want to spend this whole week on birthday dinner, but have: Substack post (today), Music Week (today), Loose Tabs (tomorrow?), Gottschalk roofing (tomorrow), dentist (Wednesday), as well as shopping and cooking, probably more roofing throughout the week. Not even sure who the guests will be. I finally went to library on Saturday, and picked up four area cookbooks (none of the ones I had considered ordering, but enough to work with). I thought I'd do a shopping round, but held off on that. I'm thinking now that I'll go to Thai Binh after Laura gets back from dentist, just for some early reconnoitering, then go to the Harry St. store after my denstist on Wednesday, plus whatever else I need at that time. I'm thinking I'll start with sambals, pastes, and sauces perhaps as early as tonight. I should check on the pickle (achar) recipe too. I also need to do some housecleaning and organization. I should also see if I can figure out what's wrong with the grill. I can get by without the saté skewers, but they would be terrific, and I'm seeing some other grilled dishes -- chicken that has been cooked in coconut milk, whole fish -- that could be amazing. Email (17 messages):
Sunday, October 19, 2025Daily LogSpent most of yesterday working on the Gaza II piece. Basically, I rewrote the introduction from scratch, pushing everything else down. But I failed to complete, let alone post, so that will be a big push today. I had hoped to get Gaza II out yesterday, and Loose Tabs up today, with a brief recap of Music Week on Monday that would clear my calendar, so I could start cooking birthday dinner. I also have dentist next week, plus all that roofing business, so I'm feeling overwhelmed. Jazz Critics Poll after that. Watched 2 episodes of season 3 of The Diplomat last night. Feels ever more like a liberal war fantasy, not unlike The West Wing or (presumably, as I never watched a whole episode) Madame Secretary. Entertaining, perhaps even gripping, if you overlook much. Laura is into it, so I'll watch on. I will say, though, that all these hyperintelligent, fanatically hard-working operatives seem like a major disconnect from what we've been able to discern from the Trump and Biden administrations (and for that matter their only marginally more competent predecessors). The actual operatives there seem likely to make Veep overly rationalized, because it's hard for even satirists to grasp how vacuous their subjects really are. I only occasionally hate-watched The West Wing, noting it imagined a better Clinton White House, one where all the people were better actors, being fed better-scripted lines, as if a slight tune up in appearances was the only thing keeping Clinton's admin from rousing success. Slept ok, getting up once, then again after 10. Started reading Ilan Pappé's new book, which covers similar ground to my essays, but is better written and more cogently argued. My value added is mostly in the crazy ideas department, but I suspect he has those later on, as well. His focus is on potential change within Israel. My focus is more on how the world should deal with these murderers, given that there is very little we can do until they want to change. Ideally, in the end both approaches will meet, and help one another. Some email (13 messages):
Saturday, October 18, 2025Daily LogWatched episode 4 of Silent Witness last night, followed by Abbott Elementary goes to a Phillies game. Spent most of the day going over my NOEL post on Gaza War Peace Plan. Got two likes fairly quickly. Big hope for today is to revise the part two piece and get it out tonight. That's going to be a tougher job, as the piece is rather sprawling and messy. Woke up today thinking of a new introduction, which seems necessary for continuity from the first piece. Then I found my thoughts expanding into what is minimally a third piece. Woke up early, before the machine shut down (which seems to be more likely when I'm on my back). But I stayed in bed, and went back to sleep. Got up about 11, with 460 minutes. AHI was 2.1, higher than usual, but still under their 5 marker. Finished the Barkan book. Last couple chapters were very scattered, directing a lot of ire at Democrats from almost random angles. It might be interesting to come up with a exercise sheet where you list all of these complaints, estimate how many people were affected by each, and apportion blame in two columns: not just how badly the Democrats blew the issue, but how clever the Republicans were in exploiting it, and an estimate of how long they might be able to get away with it. I marked a couple quotes I might expand on in Loose Tabs. Lots of candidates for next book, but Ilan Pappé is probably LIFO. Roof business: Tom James came over. I gave him a tour, talked a lot, got his assurance that he's interested in doing anything we want, any way we want it. I asked him to break the job up into several segments, that he could estimate separately. I hadn't heard from Gottschalk, so I sent them a form, and found they hadn't gotten my email. Something rotten with Cox, evidently. I resent it, and Wanda assured me that Jim would look at it and get back to me early next week. I should probably do the same thing with Dolphin, as I haven't heard from Chris Martin either. Downtown left a phone call last week, so they're still interested. I'll send them some email over the weekend. That should be enough ducks lined up for now. I'll press everyone else to give me proposals like I've requested from Tom James. We should be able to make a decision on the first stage (high roof) next week. Laura wants to go to the No Kings demonstration. I don't. It's noon already, and I still haven't had breakfast. In addition to all the writing, I had the idea of going to the library (to see if I can find any of the Indonesian cookbooks I didn't buy), and to an Asian grocer (to make a first pass on ingredients). Light email (8 messages).
Some spare parts cut from editing the second Gaza piece:
Friday, October 17, 2025Daily LogWatched the final Karen Pirie episode last night. Lots of plot twists that ultimately added up to a pretty satisfactory story. I though of "oh what a tangled web we weave, when first we practice to deceive," figuring it to be Shakespeare but on looking it up it seems to have come from Walter Scott. Got up once, but went straight back to bed, and woke around 10, thinking of roofing. Gottschalk never got back to me from my Monday call/email. Tom James is coming over this afternoon. Dolphin never got back with an estimate either, and Midwest never called back. Laura belatedly told me that Hometown left a message, but I haven't called them back. In general, I figure it would be best to get the work done before it gets too cold, but everyone seems to be moving very slow, especially myself. I did write a bunch more on the second Gaza post yesterday. It could still be a lot of work to make it all make sense, and at this point I'm just looking for the first opportunity to tee up a field goal and be done with it. I do think there are lots of good ideas there, but it's hard to see anyone taking them seriously. The big problem is that I'm working off a model of how I think the world should work, and everyone else has a different model, not of how it actually does work (a task hampered by the sad fact that it rarely does work) as their own limited vantage points. Ukraine is probably a clearer example: both sides there are struggling for leverage to impose their will on the other, which neither can do, instead of trying to find the compromise that best serves the real people affected by the war. The admonition "do the right thing" would go far toward solving that. Israel is harder to see because, while it's couched in the same power politics, it's really just one side grappling with its own demons, oblivious to the damage it inflicts on others. I might find somewhere to use that, but I have a lot of similar points I'm unable to get to. My hope is to get the first post out tonight, the second tomorrow, and Loose Tabs on Sunday, then Music Week on Monday, leaving the rest of next week for cooking (I've started a planning file). Email (40 messages, some leftover from last night):
Thursday, October 16, 2025Daily LogWatched Slow Horses and Elsbeth last night. Spent most of the day working on part 2 of my Gaza war/peace post. I hit the bullet points, but feels very rough, and definitely needs intro and outro. Was effectively blind when I woke up, unable even to make out the 3-inch digital numbers on the clock. But I did take Barkan's book with me to the bathroom, and after a few minutes I started reading. I wound up finishing the "Israel" chapter, leaving "Culture" for next. Like Beauchamp, a young Jewish-American journalist with little affection for Israel. (Beauchamp came from Holocaust-survivor families, which seems not to have weighed in Israel's favor.) Nothing on the roof front yesterday, aside from one company dropping by to offer a "free inspection." I'm bothered by the lack of follow up from previously contacted companies, but there's other stuff I'd rather work on. I hope to clean up the second Gaza post today, and send out the first one. Email (24 messages):
Wednesday, October 15, 2025Daily LogWatched more of The Gold and Only Murders in the Building last night. I made a small amount of progress on the roof yesterday: I found out that Tom James, who I know through the Peace Center and hired once to put in a French drain, is working with a roofing company these days. I talked to him, and he's coming over Friday. I talked to another friend, who recommended Gottschalk Brothers Roofing, so I called them, sent them the claim report, and am waiting for a call back. I did some checking on Hometown Roofing, and one reference didn't pan out. Nothing more from previous contacts. It rained some, but I didn't check the attic. I'm at something of a loss here, but figure it wouldn't hurt to let it slide until Friday. Week after will be my birthday, leading up to dinner on Saturday. I got another southern cookbook from Amazon, but haven't ordered any Indonesian yet. I figured I should look at the books I have, and see if I could make a sufficient menu out of them. I opened a file, and jotted down a dozen-plus recipes, plus made notes on several Rijsttafel menus (and watched a video from a restaurant in the Hague). Seems like more than enough to work with. But it does occur to me that perhaps I should order some ingredients rather than -- as with the Burma dinner last year -- hoping I could find them locally. (I wound up unable to make the Tea Salad, supposedly the signature Burmese dish.) I could go out and reconnoiter, but Amazon might be easier. I'm thinking that the best way to do Indonesian would be to sort the dishes out by how long they keep, and start cooking 3-4 days in advance. Yesterday's draft, in the form of a shopping list, doesn't really work to plan with, so I may open up a proper planning document today. Woke up just before 9. Tried going back to sleep, but failed, and got up at 10 (95 on the meter). Thinking a lot about the second Gaza post. My plan was to review and post the first one yesterday, but I managed nothing for the day (other than adding some Loose Tabs). Probably best to see if I can get the new one going, then be able to offer both of them in rapid succession. The new Ilan Pappé book arrived today. Read some more from Barkan, including bits on Occupy, the "leaderless left" and the "Palestine left." I'm not very happy with these concepts, but I have long maintained that the "failure" of the New Left was really just an extreme opposition to power, so much so that they didn't even trust themselves. That led to cultural wins but didn't secure them politically, making it easier for the right to roll them back. Email (14 messages):
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